Now here it comes, the hardest part of all.
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go...
Yup. It is official...
Wala na kami ni Present.
I don't know what went wrong.
He said: "Wala ka ng time sa akin."
I said: "Alam mo namang Monday to Saturday ang work ko."
He said: "Eh di kita tayo after work mo..."
I said: "Bhe Monday to Saturday work ko, 9am to 6 pm ang sked ko. Pero umaalis ako ng office magtu 12am na sa dami ng trabaho..."
He said: "Eh di tuwing Linggo? Kita tayo?"
I said: "Sige, pero di lagi lagi ha. Makakahalata rito sa bahay. Alis ako ng alis tuwing Sunday..."
Third week of July...
He said: "May pag-iisipan lang ako. Itetxt na lang kita kapag tapos na ako mag-isip..."
I said: "Ha? Ano naman ang pag-iisipan mo?"
No reply.
Two days later...
I said: "Bhe, sabihin mo naman sa akin kung may nagawa akong kasalanan. Ang hirap namang humingi ng sorry kung di mo alam kung para saan ung pinagso-sorry mo..."
No reply.
After two days (again)
I said: "Bhe?"
No reply (again)
Sabi ko eto na ba to?
Eto na naman ba 'to? 'Tong pakiramdam na 'to?
Pakiramdam na naramdaman ko kay Past?
True enough. Isang araw lang naman akong di lumabas ng kwarto. Nag-iiyak.
Pati sa work, nakapag-leave ako ng isang araw.
Kaya ayokong buksan ang puso ko eh. Di ko kasi alam kung ano ang gagawin ko pagdating ng araw na 'yon. Araw na kinakatakutan ko...
All I can say is...
Thank you Present.
Thank you for the three wonderful months na magkasama tayo. Ang saya saya ko during our time. Di ko lang alam kung nakita mo yon...
Thank you Jennylyn.
Thank you for the song.
It helped...
kahit konti :(
:(
ReplyDeletemakasabat lang po... :)... well we all have work to do.. and the least you could have done eh make ur presence felt even in ur absence.. i mean there's a lot of ways to communicate nowadays. If you relly love someone, even if you're too busy or got problems, im sure you'll find ways to communicte and make him felt ur presence... just a thought...:) it takes 2 to tango... btw, that song is originally sang by Mikaila. My all-time favorite "moving on" song..
ReplyDelete@Ate Mel:
ReplyDeletetnx ate Melanie, ayaw ko talagang iblog 'to pero kailangan ko lang ilabas, ang hirap kasi pag kinikimkim mo...
@Topak:
Pinaparamdam ko naman sa kanya, texts at calls kahit nasa work ako, maibsan man lang yung pagka-miss ko sa kanya... Yup i know revival lang ni Jen yung song, pero ang ganda ng rendition niya eh :)
hi there!
ReplyDeleteim reading this blog entry..im just wondering..lahat ba ng nakarelasyon mo mga straight? how can you have that confidence to get them? hehe. kasi to be honest, i consider myself as a bi before but now i feel im a real gay..i meant straight acting one..dati karelasyon ko bi pero gusto ko na ng mga straight ngaun..haha. wierd! ewan ko ba..kng bkit ganito narramdaman ko. i've been single for 2 yrs na and until now walang lovelife..though may mga nagpparamdam but the prob is..takot ako masaktan ulit like what happend to my last relationship..kaya deadma ko sila! hope i could share some time with you..i think you're a good person naman..nice blog! :)
-AL-
Tnx al! Sabihin mo mang old fashioned aq pero i still believe in soulmates ;)
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